Life Changing Events

As a parent you pray that you never have to go through any kind of life changing event, you don't want to hear the words, "Your child..."- today was that kind of a day for us!  For a few weeks now Brasen has had some issues at night time (parents, you catch my drift)- he's been drinking constantly, and even through the day was needing to go to the restroom frequently.  I decided after trying to keep up with laundry but going crazy with it, it was time to call the dr.  On Monday afternoon, I picked up the phone and called- we were able to get a dr. appt the following day with our pediatrician's office at 4:15 p.m.  PERFECT!!!!  No extra time off work for me- Ryan could make it as long as he wasn't released from his restrictions- everything was going to work out PERFECTLY!!!!!

Not so much- PERFECT, what is perfect...???...

Tuesday, September 20th- my life changed forever!

Normalcy was not something I'd be used to anymore!

Being responsible at ALL times was now the norm!

I'm not in control- GASP! (for those of you who know me well, this is not an easy item for me to handle!)

6:00 a.m.- I got Brasen up for school as usual

6:10 a.m.- Brasen rolled out of bed and got into the shower

6:15 a.m.- I'm trying to get dressed but hear Brasen yelling out my name

6:20 a.m.- Finally make it into the bathroom where Brasen is dry-heaving in the shower

6:25 a.m.- I got him washed off, dried off, and standing over the toilet.  Grabbing a bowl and some clothes I move him to my bed.  His face is a color of yellow jaundice I've NEVER seen, except those from pictures of someone dying of liver failure.  His lips were white and I knew at that moment- SOMETHING WAS TERRIBLY WRONG!

6:27 a.m.- I did what I knew to do best, I grabbed him something to drink (decided with the Kool-aid, just to test what I thought was going on) and some crackers.

6:29 a.m.- Called Ryan to tell him to come home to stay with Brasen today. 

6:35 a.m.- Brasen's color was back, his stomach didn't hurt, and he was starting to act like my boy again....

What is going on?

I left for work knowing in my heart and head that something was definately going on with my little man. 

(Fast Forward to 4:15 p.m.)

I left work for the dr appt, scared but praying the whole way there...

As I walked in I met Ryan's mom and what a blessing that was!  We walked back to his room together and they had performed one blood test on him already- to high to register on the charts.  2 more finger pricks and a urine test all came back to high to register- OFF THE CHARTS they kept telling us. 

We were sent to Riley where we've been since 5:30 or so with several of our family and pastor...

Long night, and a few long days ahead of us but when we go home our boy (and Ryan and I) will know how to deliver insulin shots to our little man daily.

Brasen was diagnosed tonight with Type 1 Juvenile Diabetes.  He will be insulin dependent the rest of his life.  He has been a true trooper these last few hours, because you see my little man doesn't like shots- is terrified of them! 

Through all of this I kept thanking God that it wasn't cancer, liver failure, kidney failure or any other horrendous non-curable disease.  I'm not sure why we are being sent through this storm- but I'll take it- I've got my boy to hold at the end of the night!  My prayers tonight were that of praise- my God is good and I know that he'll take care of us always! 

"We can do all things through Christ who gives us strength!"  So true- we might be tested right now, but I know God will use this for a greater cause!

Pray for us- I know so many of you are, but keep them up!  Pray for little Brasen boy, he's been so strong- so brave, but he's scared- and so many questions!

Today is definately a day I'll never forget!  NEVER!!!!